For some reason this morning I watched The E! True Hollywood Story of Giuliana Rancic. For those that don't know who she is, she is the anchor of E! News and had a reality show with her husband, Bill. Again, I don't know why I watched the special because I don't watch E! News or their reality show. But I did know however, that they dealt with infertility so maybe that is why I watched. They decided to feature their journey with infertility on the show rather than hide it like many other celebrities tend to do. Which goes to show you that infertility affects people of all shapes, sizes, age, background, etc. I don't know if it was the hormones surging through my body. Her describing the feelings she was going through which were the same feelings I felt (failure, jealousy, frustration). The clips of her getting the shots needed to prep for IVF which reminded me that I could have been in that same situation. Or what? But I just started crying. I don't even know this woman, let alone follow her on tv or in magazines but I'm crying along with her because we experienced the same thing. Wanting something that a lot of people take for granted.
I'm grateful that we beat my PCOS and I'm 13 weeks along with a baby that is giving me a relatively easy pregnancy and has what my doctor described as a perfect heartbeat. Our journey only took a year to get pregnant and people will probably think "Oh, that's not that long." But when you are in our situation and go back to before we got pregnant, the uncertainty you deal with makes you feel like you will be trying for forever.
By the way, after surviving breast cancer, Giuliana and Bill are now awaiting the birth of their first child by gestational carrier at the end of the summer.
